Officially Missing You

Apple remind me of you in my mind. I'm officially missing you.

Lost, Help!!!

After the approval, seem everything stops without any progress... its worry me... but still it stop at there for almost 2 months... I shall start my research and survey to complete all the preparation before I depart.

Took a pen and a piece of paper, listed down all the things that I must do before I leave... Wow, quite a lot and I realize that I do not have enough time to ready all the stuff... and I am very lost right now as I do not know what I shall do immediately... where I could get the correct information... Maybe I am scared is because I am heading there alone, I feel unsecure, feel like not willing to go alone, I wish somebody could accompany me there, because, I start feeling tough...

I lied to my mother, if anything happen to me, it must freak her out. I am Lost. Can you help me?!

Too difficult

Wish to be with you... I shouldn't care of others' thinking of me as what others think of me is non of my business which I learned it from internet.

Wish to be with you... I shouldn't think too much as actually we are just learning each other, nothing more than that.

Wish to be with you... Am I too difficult? Yes, I am too difficult to you. =)

You ends up with words of "Have a good night".

Frankly, you are a sweet and thoughtful person... glad to meet you.

Friday blur....

Friday working day, always is my most relax day of working day. So, my heart is not with me when I am working. It was fully presented by myself when someone lend somethings from me especially it was the time just few minute before end work.

Some one came to me borrowing some stuff from me. I wasn't concentrate in the conversation and motion. Haha. Because, it happened as below.

He asked:"scissor." with finger pointed to somewhere of my desk and showing expression of questioning like can you borrow me.

What I gave was calendar.

Then he laughed and asked:" cutter."

I was blur and gave him a highlighter as I thought he was talking about "color".

Again, he asked:"tape."

Guess what I gave....

Haha, it was a scissor...

What he did was, he laugh out loud and said I was fooling him.

See, that is so obvious that my heart is not here with me when I am well prepared to run away from workplace.... so, don't talk to me when it is right before few minute to end work especially it is on friday ya... my colleague...

Missing You

It was a normal working day, started with went upstair to study the stuff overthere but surprisingly I learned a news that he is leaving even from Malaysia and back to his hometown soonest as next week. This is a "Wow" news I got on that day which I never expect it even never imagine it and so shy to say that I am missing him.

At that moment, I only realize of the feeling of not willing to apart... can't remember how long I do not have such feeling but now I got it again to a not very close colleague. But I do have such feel to him. Anyway, I'm not going to farewell with him but I do damn desperate to send him my blessing. So, I decided to SMS him althought it sound weird and awdful...

Below are the content....

"All the best to you... take care ya... From Shirley Choy"

He replied

" Thank u, u 2 take care. Now there would be less 1 person bothering u. Cheers."

I am really glad to read his reply... So, for this time, I told him, I'm gonna miss him .....

Again, here would like to wish him all the best...

Approval

Finally, its approved. Happy...
Start wondering, planning, implementing...
Hi, new chapter of my life, I'm coming...

Love ya!!!

The very first working day of July in 2012

I had a very plenitude day for beginning of July 2012. Its exhausted, tired but happy. I learned the meaning of true friend which my two lovely coursemate sacrified their time to accompany me, drive me here and there, organize high tea session, whatever... Really touched me...

2nd of July is not important to many of the world, but it did mean for us as we all prepared for this long time ago. But too sad it that there is a limit for this. Else it would be much easier to handle this. I sacrified my sleeping time to do this but for until this moment, I do not regret what I am trying to do. Hopefully, I get what I want. Hope is occupying the world, just don't give up.

Although its tough when queeing, but meeting somebody, made friends, sharing, all these enhanced my boring queeing.

I can't describe the feeling of how hopeless and helpless I got at that moment as I came late at 315am and located at the grey area of the que which may within or exceed 100, even can't describe how excited, how lucky, how happy I felt when I got the number 85... its within 100... I do not know how they feel, how disappointed they have for those ppl behind me that is exceeded 100 ...

You know what! The first ppl came at 830pm at 1st July. How crazy of this stuff...
The gal who got no. 90, actually is the last one of the quota, when the 91st had been told to KIV at the waiting list, it shock all of us... wasn't the quota is 100, why it stop at 90. Sigh, so sad of the ppl from 91st to 100th who thought they are going to take number from the crew. What so crazy of the world, its keep changing, anything can just happen without knowing any reason even it stated clearly that the quota is 100 but actual really not understandable.

The gal who got no. 90 is a gorgeous who speak english all the time. I just envy her surrounding auro... a word to say is charm... I can't take my eyes off her. But I never think of make friend with her but then who knows that she approached me and we are friend now. We walk together, chit-chat, she is really nice, friendly, confidence, lovely, young, cute but mature... smart ...etc etc...

And I realize, I really love to speak english...

Last but not the least, hope all the stuff goes smooth ...as I can't wait to leave now...

Tag alone

"When will you let me tag alone?"

Is my first time to receive this kind of question. Poor me that my english is not good so it take a long time for me to interpret it. Finally, I understand that tag in this sentense means follow. Means that he is asking when I am free to with him alone....

What am I suppose to answer him? He is married. Is just a simple high tea catch up session or else... Am I over think the real purpose of him?

Anyway, this sentence make me happy at least some moment no matter what I am going to reply no matter what is his purpose...

=)

Souvenir from Italy

A lovely small souvenir from colleague that cheer up my life...Do not underestimate the positive energy from the lovely thing that brought to me... it content the sincere from my colleague... Pls see below stuff that enhance my life for moment.....

If I'm afford and able to buy some souvenir when travelling, I definately will choose the souvenir specific to particular person one by one... because I hope my lovely friends and family could enjoy the small happiness that I experienced and hope they can feel my sincere to them via the souvenir....

I never think to have real souvenir from Italy... just ever received from Singapore, China, Thailand.... Italy sound a dream place to me.... If I am able to have a vacation in Italy ... It would be amazing ....

你要怎样说话。。。很重要。。。

最近阅读了一本Dale Carnegie的书《卡内基沟通与人际关系》，分享以下文段。。。

读到这段，有得益。。。所以分享。。。感觉到两者的不同，效果差别很大一下。。。说话这学问真的有排学。。。

懒惰再打写，请原谅我的懒惰。。。希望阅读开心。。。

Just Wanna Say "Wish you recover soon"

Finally found out what is happening to him. Just saw the picture of his sewed cut from the surgery. How ugly and how sad I am feeling right now. Really like a American, OMG. I guess the wound is about 7 to 8 inch distributed at his neck. How horroble to learn that you have such a long cut at your neck. doesn't everyone know that there are many nerve at that particular area... if there is any mistake make by the doctor, is really high risk to lose someone when doing this surgery to remove the turmo at his neck.

Glad to know that all things ran smooth. The world still own his life.

Althougt we are apart... But somehow something still connecting us in a way that is almost have each other negligible. But I do aware of your life in my life. You are an important passanger in part of my life. But is over now. I knew it.

Wish you recover soon.

Brittani Kline

Again, it's a long time I didn't fall into the story of a movie or a show. This time, I am really into it. The 16 cycle American Next Top Model.

She is Brittani Kline who is a very beautiful, sincere, boyish, lovely, and strong candidates in the 16 cycle American Next Top Model. Do not know since which episode, I do believe and wish her to be the winner of the show. She is lovely and really charm to me. Gorgeous are everywhere in the show but she is always the one who can really attract my sight and really make me feel good by sire to her.

She is so talented in the model industry as she can model easily and well when she is really switch on the right path and right feel to the situation. I always love those talented person deep from inside. She can always turn to everybody who she wanted when camera is rolling especially her eyes, just so professional as a high fashion American Next Top Model.

In the show, she is not the best for some episode and even she made mistake for some episode but just she is mean to be a model. From the show, I learned that ppl do not want the best for model but consistent performance from the models.

Sometimes, I do really learned something from reality show, learns how ppl thought, how ppl talk and how ppl perform. Learning is always make me feeling well. Thanks god that I am still learning.
So finally, yeah, she is the one to be the winner of the 16 cycles American Next Top Model.

Bravo.... Here is her best shoots in the show....

我的祝福

知道他进院了。不晓得是什么事情。很想知道却不敢去问。知道一切好像良好。我也不好参进去，毕竟不再联系也有一段时间了。突然的询问好像很多余。回到自己，到底是为了什么会想知道？是担心吗？还是鸡婆而已。自己也不了解。大概他在我心里也是一个分量不差的过客吧！我想。。。
愿你一切顺利。。。

心底的自卑让自己受伤了

平常自信的我都会把自卑收藏的很好的，可是那天有少少的露陷了。。。我告诉自己没关系，硬撑一下下就好，很快就会过去了，只需三个小时就好了。

可是事情没有想象中那么顺利，心灵还是有少少的受伤了。可能那是无心言语，还是我惹恼他了，我不晓得，只能告诉自己说他是无意的来让自己感觉好过一些。

要让自己能够在任何场合都自信满满，唯一办法应该就是为自己增值吧！！！

是时候做些功课啦。。。可是该怎么做才能够达到那个效果呢？？？头痛。。。

Everyone's Special Day

Birthday supposingly is a happy and special date to everyone... but some ppl is getting sensitive with this special day....

Some will use birthday to judge how big of their network. On birthday, if you have a lot of friends then you will get of course a lot of wishes from whatever kind of network.... colleague, friends, family, coursemate....etc etc... Some ppl will count how many times they are going to celebrate their birthday... Some ppl will calculate how many or how much of the present being received by birth baby...

But Birthday somehow also make ppl stress especially friends of birthday baby... they tend to vex how to celebrate their friends' birthday, have to consume some money to achieve the surprise they need to create... what kind of surprise shall be pattern up.... oh... it is feeling terrible for those ppl who are not so creative like me.... haha.....

For me, birthday is just a normal day to me... but I understand that with your small wishes from your mouth or by text... it will create a good mood to those birthday baby...

So, in order to create happiness to my lovely friends, I usually will buy a birthday card and write some sincere word to present my lovely friendship to my lovely friends....

So, Friends who is birthday on 25 May, Happy birthday to you... All the best and wish your dreams come true......

保障

突然想起姐姐告诉我说，车，我们都舍得帮它每年买保险，为什么会有人不舍得为自己买呢？难道车的价值会比人来的高！！！

当时听了，有种恍然大悟的感觉。突然惊觉是时候保障一下自己的生命，毕竟人生无常是所有人认同的一句话。

当你有事时，保险有时候也能够为你身边的人省下不少麻烦。

在这个通货膨胀的时代，无可否认的是保险为人生发挥不少有益的作用。

我该安排安排一下了。。。你认为呢？

Regretful and Learned

I seldom make ppl mad of me... but seldom doesn't mean never offence others. Today, my fool action make someone angry with me. That time, I really regret till feel like want to looking for death. In short, regret till want to die. Haiz..... anyway, things happened, useless to just feeling regret. So, I'm thinking to find a way to get his/her forgiveness...

I'm wondering why even I am so careful for my every words, every action, every decision that I make... still offence someone in some days... Finally, the answer is someone used to be trying so hard to avoid offensive but they didn't learn to judge which is right to do and which is not.

My next learning lesson subject would be " Learn to judge the right things to do in order to avoid offensive stuff."

My dear Friend, forgive me pls. Sorry for what I did it to you that make you feeling frustrating and annoying. I really appreciate our friendship. Don't dare to imagine if I lost it. =8

I am always here for listening

There always has some difficulty or troubles in one family. As a outsider, listening always is my choice when friends are  talking about their hard and suffer. Poor me is always do not know how to advice and guide. The things that they need it the most are advices and helps but always, I lack of it and unable to provide it to my lovely friends who are trying to seek help from me. Friends, sorry for unable to help eventhough I am trying so hard to do it. But when you are ready to talk about it, just I am always here for listening.

Daily Lovely Stuff That Enhance My Day

To live a happy life, you have to magnify the daily happiness and diminish daily negative energy.

So, I choose to magnify my happiness today.

The manager purposely recall my name and show me his happiness of remembering my name. I assume that at least I am somebody to him i/o nobody... Some times, it is so sad to be small potato... =)

Today I learned this, it create me a lovely mood which enhance my day. Thanks Will...... for respecting me.

Shirley Name

Is Shirley that hard to remember? Our company new manager keep forgetting my name. He just remember what post I'm doing but just forget my name. He used to be calling me Michele, Rachel, Sharon.... but not "Shirley". But Shirley is a very common name, isn't? Whats make him so forgetful about this name? I'm wondering and curious. Everytime he call me, he has to refer his notebook before calling me. How should I feel about his action? I am still wondering...

Haha... Finally, I understand what it feel likes.....
Like I'm really a small small potato in the company.... anyway... Is true as well. =)

She is Shirley Temple, the manager need to use her name as a hint to remember my name... How weird it is....

At first, I was thinking Shirley Temple is a temple .... how embarrasing to learn that it is a name of an actress.......

Anyway, I learn something today!!!

New Chapter of Shirley life

Long time didn't write a long article. Wish to write one for posting but still lack of words. Anyway, just share my recently life here.

Recently I always imagine myself to do anything alone like shopping alone, eating alone at restaurant, drinking alone at bar, feeling secure if I do so for clearing my mind. Once I read a book telling me that every human being has more than one personality. Different personality will come up for different condition of life. When one is hurt, strong personality will appear to protect himself / herself. Vice versa, when you are feeling secure, another soft and counting personality will show up to enjoy the moment. So, it is quite true for me.

Sometimes work for a long time, just wish to have time to spare it with myself. Talk to myself to understand what I need for current and future. Clear complicating and simplify my road to achieve my goal of life.

Although yet to be define my goal, but I have decided to create another chapter for my life. No matter the chapter is good or bad to my life. It's still my life, I will love every chapter in my life.

I learned that if some one take too many things into consideration for every matter, it will become obstacle i/o careful thinking and well planning. So although life is need to be planned, but it has to progress as well.... In short, I am going to progress my life to another chapter soon......No matter is proposal A, proposal B or proposal C... is time to change my life and enhance my life no matter is good experience or bad experience. I will not regret.....

Haha, why sound like I'm pursueing myseld to do my new chapter?

Drunk Shirley

Yesterday I was drunk. I did a lot of things that I never did before yesterday. I just knew that drunk driving is really really freaking dangerous... you will fall asleep when driving... luckily I am safe...

When drunk, different ppl with different drunk style... i think mine one is talking disorderly... I have forgotten what I had told yesterday... but I knew it is embarrasing...... so pls, my dear friends... do not believe what I have told when I am drunk....

I found it's hard to face to face to my friends since they saw my abnormal behaviours....just so embarrased... OMG

美丽

美丽是种感觉。只要一个人满足于现状，拥有自信，那个人就会给人一种美感。你认同吗？ 很多人觉得一件艺术或商品很漂亮可是缺乏美感。大概就是这种意思吧！！ 所以人也是一样，一个人对生活抱怨连连，自卑，就算外表怎么漂亮，怎么看，都会觉得少了份美的感觉。 当初大学时期潮流自拍，无论怎么拍，都很满意每张照片里的自己。可能那时我过着开心的校园生活，现在大概是心境不美，所以每每拍的照片都马马虎虎。。。也意兴阑珊。。所以现在浪费了功能不坏的手机相机。 是时候开始让自己兴致勃勃起来啦。。。懒懒的生活还蛮累的。。。

不懂

不懂做么，我觉得长大后生活很不快乐。

Enjoyable Moment

Previously, I was always wondering why some girls being blessed by many of others... but always I am not the some girls.

Currently, I am those some girls who is being blessed by many of others, but only realize that the moment being blessed by others is based on the long journey which build up the moment.

Although the moment is enjoyable but it is too short if compared with the ratio of our life.

So, we have to appreciate instead of envy and jealous.

日记四之新新人类

没有你的第四天，今天公司派我去训练班。不用上班感觉真的比较轻松。。。今天学的是不同时代背景的人会有什么样的性格。。。我是新新人类，Gen Z。据说这类人很聪明，需要大量空间发挥。。。可是感觉这样归类有点不大认同。。。无论如何，听老师的课，还是学到点知识，道理。。。

心情不错的一天。。。

日记三之情人节

没有你的第三天，今天刚好是情人节。首先对自己说情人节快乐。今天特赦，让自己早放工然后看电影去。难得情人节不需要一个人过。

电影结婚那件事。不错，可是还没到很好评的那种。不过却让我联想起让我流泪的事，是感动的另类说法吗！

感触后想起他，有点想念，所以拨号过去，哈，幸福的他要睡觉了。 想到他在这里很无聊没人陪我就希望他能够多留几个月好让他快乐。可是另一方面，我多么希望他能够留在身边。

无论如何，三天这样也就过去了。

日记二

没有你的第二天，虽然平时我是一个人去上班，可是少了你为我关门感觉很危险。尤其是晚上，我害怕，所以我把灯里里外外都开起来，好让家没那么空虚。。。希望你能早点回来。

日记一

没有你的第一天， 我感到很闲很无聊。 睡觉又不是，看戏也不是。睡觉起来又没有饭吃，感觉被世界所遗弃。感觉很糟糕！

糟糕的感觉挥之不去直到好友来电告知那天配的眼镜好了才能够让我打起精神去生活每分每秒。。。

世界再次美好起来了。。。好想你

ASUS Tablet

Finally I got my great prize after a week waiting... Thanks for my colleague's hand carry and redeemption... Share the real stuff picture here.... to express my excitement.... wow.... I never think about owning a tablet before... at least not within this year.... how lucky I am.... Love ya

Side Effect Of HK Trip

Vomit and fever ~~~ I started low appetite at HK.... even company annual dinner I also ate less compared with previous whom Shirley is...

One thing I have to share is, I am so lucky to win a lucky draw of ASUS tab with 10" screen worth HK$4999 while company annual dinner... wow, how great to win my first prize in my life.... I never won a such great prize in my life before... is this my purse functioning...wakakaka.... sometime is not obsessed, you do really need to believe it....



Yet, I haven't got the real stuff on hand since I go upstair stage to take the receipt, it have to redeem, so I requested my HK colleague to collect for me and hopefully I could get it by this Sunday when my HK colleague back to Malaysia for CNY. Here would like to greet all of my friends a very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012...

oooo... too far from the topic, back here, for last day of HK before went to airport... I started vomit... from here and there, haha, then I will lay down whenever I meet bed... haha, it is so suffer at flight, I miss out my lunch at flight because I slept whole journey and vomit once on flight, my loss to not eat the lunch....

But beside the negative side effect, there is positive side effect as well.... I fever for two days, optimistic side is I could rest two more days before resume work... Is this one of the example of positive thinking.... <3

Vibrant City ~ Hong Kong

For our GM, Hong Kong is a nice place to just stay for few days maybe 4 to 5 days, it is too tired to stay here if stay longer than that. I agree, it is so tired to stay here because ppl here do not sleep till late night, 7 million ppl stay in a small city, how crowded you can imagine.

As introduce by Hong Kong colleague, our breakfast was settled at a famous restaurant call "欧洲牛奶", a breakfast with HK$26. Taste really nice, big size, so full. But, you have to fast, walk in fast, sit down fast, order fast, eat have to fast, really no time to chat to think, everything is fast here in Hong Kong. There was only have time for me to study the menu while waiting my colleague to finish her after I finished my breakfast.



The other day, we explore Hong Kong with only Malaysian colleague by ourselve, so we all just random pick restaurant for dinner, althought the dinner is nice, but the price is freaking high.... HK$969 for 4 pax... How do you think? But no choice since all the food was digesting in our stomach....wakaka.... one thing we really need to own one is ~~~~ credit card..... as long as we use it smartly, life is wonderful.....

Hong Kong is full of ppl, really a narrow city with bright everyway.... you can feel the place is fulfill the sentence of "the night is still young", even old man like Mr. Colin also stated so..... Narrow is one of my problem in this city, hard for me to breath in a narrow place like Hong Kong.... Hong Kong like Bangkok, ppl can do whatever things in a narrow place, they can shop, eat, learn, walk, business, in a very very narrow place....this one I have to practise in order to adapt life here...

One thing I like the most is there are a lot of Handsome here, some more most of them are taller than me, this is the point for tall girls....hehehe, besides, gorgeous is everywhere as well... a lovely place with many beautiful ppl walking around, I can feel the sentence, you are odd in Malaysia when you wear super freaking beautiful, on the other hand, you are awkward in Hong Kong if you wear super normal cloth walking everywhere... haha, ppl here all are smart casual wear while do not have the exaggeration feeling surrounding....

Hong Kong is a vibrant city with a lot of charming ppl....

**I went Wong Kok, Stanley, Tsum Sha Tsui, Central and Jordan, nice place!!!

Philosophy of Purse

Recently I always recall the philosophy of purse. Do you believe a good purse with even number pocket could lead you a properous life and vice verse? When I was young, I had no comment regarding the philosophy. But slowly, I started to think about it and is yet to believe it.

I bought a purse when Bangkok trip. Actually the purse is very beautiful and I really like it so much. It is class from outside but it is easy to know that quality is poor when look inside. Anyway, the purse worth only 100 THB. Really feel lucky to own a beautiful cheap purse like this.

But, when life goes on. Things like money starting to flow out from my purse unconcuously, and it is out of control. Even I try to cut my budget for saving, but it is yet to achieve. I nearly recall the philosophy of purse when my laptop is broken down without any sign. Still the philosophy didn't promt out in my mind.

Till yesterday, I was shopping, trying to not buying anything except mascara, I plan to have a expensive with good quality mascara, but when I went in Sasa, promotion here and there, I was wondering that I am so lucky to have a 50% discount for my mascara.

Nothing happen yet, money still keep safely in my purse until late at night of the day. I was going to take my car and was going to leave and return home for sleeping. Haiz, anythings can just happen to let you consume your money.

You know what, I lost my parking ticket. Oh my god, at that moment, I was nervous, thinking how to overcome it without using a cent. But, easy to guess, the end is I couldn't find it out and the only solution is pay 20 bucks for the ticket. Just luckily, I didn't happen other things that is worser than that. Thank god for this.

So, the 20 bucks really ruin my mood of the day, and I guess, I didn't get any discount for my mascara. The 20 bucks add the discounted price is just nice equal to the original price. Haiz, what can I do was just keep telling myself "is okay, just you don't have discount price for your mascara. Nothing big deal. "

How bad luck I am to use the purse. Eventhought maybe it is not it's fault but I do believe the purse brought me bad luck from financial expect, so I decided to change another purse. There is another purse I bought when Bangkok trip. I took out and count on the pocket, yeah yeah, the number of pocket in the new purse is even number, hopefully, it could bring me a properous life in future. =)