公司来那么一出<乱世出佳人>

好长一段时间没来这里。也把这里忘了一段时间。现在失眠就突然想起。
每次享用了茶后都这样。糊涂的我也常不理会。晚上才来后悔。

没关系，这样也让我比较有心思分享。

说说公司吧。。

公司总让我觉得一团糟。不过。。。
某某能力很强的同事说，对一个准备待续，等待机会的人来说，公司的糟无疑是某某人的一出“乱世出佳人”。

某某对我来说就是“乱世出佳人”的绝好例子。在问题丛丛的团队脱颖而出，成功上位。
强国的人果然非常强，聪明地让我佩服。当然上天是公平的，人没有完美，某某虽然工作表现满分却缺乏耐心。招惹许多部属的怨，当然还不到恨。

其实重点也不是什么，可能某某特意树立那么一个严谨的形象好让员工管理方面比较顺心吧！！成功人士厉害就是在这里，懂得捉心里，应用不一样的途径去达成理想。

虽然我们不同team, 但奇怪的发展，我们成为看戏吃饭的伴。每次聊天都压力山大，却又学习深渊。某某的见解非常与众不同，却也心机丛丛。好在某某的心机都很正面，出发点都不是要伤害别人。那如果在事情的发展中有人受伤，那就是那人咎由自取了。俗语说“不进则退”，虽然不能完全说不是某某的问题，不过在对方努力而没有伤害的成分下而发生的话，我想说，受伤的人要为自己受伤负大部分责任。因为对方努力，而自己没有付出，在职场上，能力者上，这是在普通不过了。在这种情况下受伤的人请自行反省，别一味埋怨别人啦。。。。

好累，天亮了，一夜未睡的我该补眠了。

Goals of the Year 2016

That day I asked her one question.

"Did you ever encounter those period in your life that is day counting days after days?"

She frown and answer "No".

Continuing, she said "Why? Are you reflecting your life now?"

I was embarrassed like my mind was being read by her.

Actually yes, I'm doing it now. I cross my calendar everyday like counting my day. In short, I'm having challenge-less life now as I have time to do such silly thing. It's not my style.

Apparently, it's my comfort zone now. Urge to change but reluctant to move. Laziness always is human's weakness.

Whenever I facebook somebody picture, by seeing their successful, I wish I am the one. I always be encouraged at that moment. But, after some times, I realize I keep the same and never move.

People always set goal at the beginning of the years. I set some as other people to make my life meaningful. Of course, it looks weak compare with others

1. Read 50 books in year 2016.
2. Stay healthy and get away my tummy.
3. Study Master.
4. Beauty myself by getting away from pimple and have fair skin on my face.

Before accomplish my goal of the year, lets review the year of 2015.

What had you done? Erm....

1. Biz trip to Japan. Be frank, this was a surprise from my boss. From there, I realized my big boss recognized my effort that I was pretty happy with that.

2. Promoted. Heard that it was my small boss idea to promote me. Hence, he is another people recognized me. Happy!!! However, the period of starting, there was office politic happened at me. Some one resigned.
I was upset myself with the incident. How could this happening to me? Anyway, it's over now.

3. I reduced 4kg of my weight. Means, I am healthier now. Good sign to accomplish my 2016 goals.

Erm... seem this is that much I had in my year 2015. Pretty less thing had done by me. sound low productivity.

Since 2015 is passed, we shouldn't cry for spitted milk. Lets focus on my 2016 goals.

Gambateh.

苏志夑

最近迷他，连续一个月每天看他的戏。
他的歌没有很好听。可是他是魅力型。就算歌没在听，却有在看。

相信每个粉丝都是这样。
我是浅迷吧，至少没花钱。哈哈


写这个不是炫耀看了他多少部戏，也不是推荐他简介他。
 只是想说，人的幻想能力是很强的。

只要朔造得好，人可以把喜欢的东西完美化。
喜欢享受被自己完美化的东西是沉迷吗？还是一种生活乐趣？
当发现完美的人有点缺陷就会疯掉吗？

看了无数他的影片，都好看直到有个他没在笑看起来耍大牌的影片。
发现他也是个有情绪的人类，并非我脑子里的那个。

可能想得太美了。看着这个影片，也就开始讨厌他。

所谓爱与恨是一线之差。虽然没那么严重。却也开始体会。

还好看他是个乐趣，所以拿到了个平衡点。
看他的感觉还蛮好的。
哈哈

Ireland's Greeting

It is kinda warm and lovely to receive mail from far west Ireland especially from a bff that has been known for 21 years.

Card is meaningful, lovely and sentimental. It was my favorite for apologies, birthday and travel souvenir.

I had forgotten the hobby that I ever had till the Christmas greeting card from her.

To make a card meaningful, you have to write something on it.

Writing is a healthy activity for balance life though it is not everyone's favorite. For me, it is. I remember one of the author share that one's life need input and output to balance life.

What is input?
It could be learning or experiencing through reading, listening, and studying.

What about output?
When you learn something, you have to utilize it. You will know the knowledge you have are meaningful to life.
When you read something, you should share it. You will input more when sharing and creativity will approach you. Then you will find life is interesting.

Writing is an mind organizing exercise. With writing, you will make up your mind, clear it, and know the direction. Of course, writing allow writer to beautify the sentence before sharing in a slow pace atmosphere. Therefore, minimize the conflict and maybe enhance your life. So, I feel relax after blogging.

Okay back to topic, my bff, she is far away from me now. What she is really doing? Is she good? I have little idea only. The little thing that I know for sure is via social media FB... I forgot ever since when, we talk less. Although it sound sad, but it's true, distance kills friendship, time kills too. I guess it happen to mostly of the friendship. No matter how, I am happy and smile genuine whenever I remember her. She is the longest friendship I ever have in my life. To me, yes, the longest, but I am not sure is it the same to her. Never mind, it is not important.

Important things is we are glad to have each other. Appreciate the time we talk nonsense on phone for hours costly for parent, we hang out for nothing especially overnight at her house. We talk forever although only two of us. Dreams, future, boys, blah blah blah.

Not sure is it happen to you. I don't talk much now. Especially colleagues, or just normal friend. The atmosphere is fine when the conversation is conducted by more than 2 persons. But, whenever is just two person, I feel tension and lack of topics to share. Awkward situation will then happen. Not sure is it due to my bad expression skill or due to lacking of knowledge. I really don't like to hang out now.

She is coming back Malaysia by next year for a month I guess. So, it is kinda excited for me to meet up. The gathering more or less must be Elaine, Emma and me. Glad that we are still friends.


Emma, see you soon.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

Cafe Writting as JK. Rowling

Foung below article that was written 1 yr ago. 

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What am I doing now? Well the answer is dining alone at KFC. After months almost a year of traveling alone, I get used of being alone. I thought I could handle myself very well while being alone but some how, I feel awkward at the starting of my every meal that is having alone. But things run well after seated.

What's next after finish the meal? Haha... I'm lost as well. Okay, the moment of looking for entertainment to kill time while waiting coach. I try to surf internet but KFC WiFi is sucks. Luckily I am able to access fm station.

Radio station is a normal and basic entertainment which is not much interesting to me. Some how, I got into a romantic and soft station. It likes a time tunnel bringing me to old school. Sentiment sound from the DJ lead me to a very leisure times like I'm having trip to Europe or London. It's like I'm staying in a luxury hotel enjoying deluxe meal and services.

I feel so good and perhaps I could close my eyes to imagine how lovely it would be if this is real. I'm focus on composing my article which I nearly leave the real world and go into my own lovely imagination world.

Actually I'm thinking how nice if I could have a book to read. Get some input to my mind doing some brainstorming.but I failed to get one. Never mind, I'm creating it.

My activity that writing in a restaurant made me think of Rowling. She is the author of the Harry Potter. She started and completed the novel in a cafe. As what I'm doing now, I might be able to understand some of her emotions during writing. Its inspiration, its sentimental and lovely.

Today was a happy day. Colleague are so nice, so helpful. I love to work with them. Maybe I'm new to the company, I'm still able to enjoy the privileges as a new staff in a company. I think its understandable.

However today also is a resignation day of him. Honestly I dislike him. The main reason is his rude talk. Obviously nobody in company like him. The way he act is too bossy, he is over confidence, rude and stupid.

He offense most of the colleague even me. But I still manage to communicate with him. Working wise, he is responsible but not educated.

I am rude when talking about him. So, let's stop this topic.

Birthday @ Boracay

This is my first time birthday surprise is truly madly deeply surprise me.

But I’m not saying previous birthday was not surprise… just not that truly madly and deeply…

Haha

The whole trip is so brilliant till my mind is full of Boracay. This is why I nearly forget my birthday. 

The meaning of Boracay in chinese is long beach island. The beach is really long that it takes an hour ++ or 2 to fully complete the walk of Boracay beach. There are restaurant from franchise to local market available along the beach. You can feel the sand from crude to fine sands. Fine sands could be found at S1. 

Our trips itinerary full with activities, I wish to have a day extra to sit back and relax at the beach for hours. It could be drinks, a nap or day dreaming at the beach. If I could have this to add on to my Boracay trips, it would be a perfect trip.

However, it is a perfect trip to me even though I don’t have that extra day. This is because, my lovely secondary class mate pre-celebrate my birthday with me here in Boracay. Although we don’t have the bon fire, but still there was a local live band arranged for my birthday song. 

Filipino is friendly enough to sang me the birthday song like I’m their friend too. The arrangement was a bit confusing that when the birthday song is sung, I thought there was someone else birthday, so I help on it with full of my energy as I was so happy with the beach. And then I remember my birthday. 

At this minute, the cake appeared and was moving towards me… from there, I knew the birthday girl is me.

Once again, it was truly madly deeply happy that everyone was celebrating for me.

The happiness stay till now with me in Singapore…

Happy birthday to Shirley in Boracay!!!!

 ps: To arrange this, someone purposely bought a coffee and brought back to hotel just to prove me. How lovely they are.

Ariel Point @ Boracay

Most enjoyable island trip ever had so far.

Enjoy the atmosphere, music, unlimited drinks, surrounding by bikini and handsome Caucasian blah blah blah…

It is my first time to drinks on boat… got tipsy on boat and feel like flying to paradise…. I got silly picture for this. 

Luckily, I never sea sick so far =)

It is my first time to cliff dive

It is my first time to swim in sea without life jacket

It is my first time to snorkeling without life jacket

There were funny things happened, well… people might find it boring but I do feel interesting and made me laugh.

One of my travel mate cliff dive calmly, but all of us burst out loudly when she got out of the water, her pant (newly bought with 100peso which we felt cheap but nice) broke out all the way of the sewing of both side seaming. I guess you can’t imagine it but I LOL for every single times of remembering it.

She is kinda “do not know what to react” face. Haha, she felt embarrassed but found funny with the incident too. So, she threw the pant in hotel during check out. The most funny part was the cleaner chased all the way to us just to return the broken pant to our cute travel mate and this make us burst out a non-stop laughter.  How best the service line is provided in Boracay Philippine.

Apart from this, another travel mate made laughter as well although this laughter is building on her painful. She is the first among us to cliff dive, however, she felt very painful and few hours later, both of her tight bruised, it was kinda large part which are visible if wearing short. We all don’t understand why this made us laugh but we did joking with her. Lesson learn that proper cliff diving skill is a must to avoid injury as “cliff diving is on your own risk”.

At Ariel Points, there are 3 meters, 5 meters, 8 meters and 15 meters jump. Coward me that only tried the 5 meters jumping with a super loud screaming (cry like hell like killing a pig)…happy thing is that people around me enjoy my screaming as they laugh out happily... haha....

Why I scream out loud?

The process is you take the brave to walk up there...
Then, you hesitate...
Few seconds later, thinking of " I don't care", so another push make you jump
Next, with eyes wide open expecting to touch the water soonest
However, such a long time that my body is dropping and still in the air... and wondering where is the sea water....
At that moment, the pressure on my heart is scary and make me scream out
Soonest after the screaming, I was in the water and feeling relief...

Wondering why those people have the brave to jump down for suicide. Hopeless/ depression are emotion that strong enough to make one suicide especially those jumping down from high building.

Anyway....Ariel point, I will be back… for 8 meters cliff dive and maybe 15 meters jump.

Job Issue vs Human Problem

I believe above mentioned happen in all kind of working environment. Maybe it could be catogoried as below.

A - High Job Issue with High Human Problem, Difficulty --> Full Star
B - High Job Issue with Low Human Problem, Difficulty --> 3 Star
C - Low Job Issue with High Human Problem, Difficulty --> 2 Star
D - Low Job Issue with Low Human Problem, Difficulty --> 1 Star

I believe happiness is inversely proportional to difficulty, so result as below.

A - High Job Issue with High Human Problem, Happiness --> 1 Star
B - High Job Issue with Low Human Problem, Happiness --> 2 Star
C - Low Job Issue with High Human Problem, Happiness --> 3 Star
D - Low Job Issue with Low Human Problem, Happiness --> Full Star

Although it is not necessary to category a company, but I am so desperate to do so.

Let me think, previous company should be B.
And for current, it must be C....

As what it categories now, seem like current condition of my life is better.

Hope this is truely represent my life.

Fame

Someone told me, seeing an art at different level of life brings up different sentimental feelings.
So, it is worth to watch a meaningful movie or read a book for a couple of times at different age to feel the things. It would touch deep inside your heart and makes you understand the life. How the world works.

Fame is a movie. I believe I watched it at my age was the best timing to understand what it really means. The message is really clear and reality. Every sentence every word is so meaningful. You will love it.

The movie talks about arts school where educates and trains students for their dreams. Well deliver the message that all of us should dare to dream and succeed.

I was well with the movie till Kevin tried to end his life in Subway station after his teacher told him that he is not gonna be a professinal ballet dancer forever which it was a dream for him ever since he was borned. He was so devastated till I could feel it deep inside my heart, the scene emphasized myself in this, it was like telling me that I ever had a big dream like he did. But somehow the world killed it like the teacher killed his dream. I don't know who killed my dream but I did giving up my ex-dream and went for another more practical goal of my life. I don't even remember what was the dream I was having. How sad it is.

The movie mentions few students story, it was well casted and made every student's story be the audience's story. It is so easy to map yourself into their story as your own and seriously, I experienced most of the story.

For example, no matter how close how good you are in the group, anyhow, we have to separate just for further our life as it is how the world works. Separate and move on no matter how good the past was. Growing up is happening in our life and you can't stop it. I cried for my friend everytime we separated for our future. I learned it now and do you know what, seem like I locked my feeling as I was getting cooler than ever. Not caring to the world operation, not enthusiasm to social, just lived a my life.

This is a lot better now after my working holiday trip, I learn to connecting my life to world. As saying in the movie, "succeed is not fame. It's not money or power. Success is waking up in the morning so excited about what you have to do that you literally fly out the door. It's getting to work with people you love. Success is connecting with the world and making people feel."

People, make yourself succeess as the definition in the movie. It is a lot happier for life.

6XX Block

Staying in 652A Block for half year, need to move out due to 2nd landlord back to her origin for good.

The 1 year contract was broken. Initially, it was troublesome to me as I need to find a new house to move in.

Anyway, I believe HE gave this opportunity for me to move to a better place.

So there you are, 6xx Block, truely frankly honestly is a way better than the previous one.

I love it sooooooo much.

Almost everything like landlord, roomate, housemate, environment, rental is better.

I was thinking that I will miss the previous room but some how its never happen, I am satisfy with my current condition.

Let's get it start for my life here in 6xx...

Picture is just for illustration...

a SHIT luck day

Gosh.... I had a shit day.
Not any kind of shit...
Is truely physically shit which was smelly, wet, nasty and disgusting.

One day, I went to Macritchie walk with group of friends.
Can't be avoid was photo session in such activity.
I leaned on the edge of bridge.
After shooting, carried on our walking happily.

When my hand accidentally touched my pant, felt like so wet, was wondering was that my sweating?
I felt wrong after some moment, I looked at my hand, me and my friend shouted together
"SHIT ARRRRRR"

All group member said no wonder there was shit smell surrounding them...

OMG, I had a shit day.
One of the member asked my feeling that day.
My answer was: I feel like shit.
Everyone had a laugh.
Actually not that much annoyed to my emotion.
I felt funny also, my first time of touching shit in such a way like so close to it. LOL.

After the matter, I told the story to my roomate and colleague, they were saying the same thing that I had a shit luck which means the shit will bring good luck to me.

Hope its true that shit = luck, means luck is following me now.

=)