The way of feeling growth

Is been long time I didn't visit my former school. So this time I had an opportunity since I need to certified some document.

Actually it is not a must to be certified by former school teacher, certified document could be done by any school teacher but finally I chose to visit my former school although I am lazy to drive so far to reach there maybe because I wish to touch back the school day feeling. How wonderful to study and to be young.

Early in the morning, I woke up and drive along the road that I seldom use. Once I reached, unexpectedly, there were few pupils in there to practice something... I thought it is holiday now, it should be no pupils inside school one.

Then, I continued to office, wow, the office change a lot, new look had been replace the old way teacher's office. First thing I did was to identify who is the headmaster now in the school by reading the organization chart in front of the office , so it is what I expected, another headmaster's photo whom I do not know is paste on the board. But never mind, I searched for the other teacher who is familiar to me, luckily, it is there. Again, I could feel the familiarity.

But the news just like a storm, she was moved to another school.... New office, new building, new headmaster, new teacher... and new pupils, I am no longer belong to this school, although I am a alumni of the school, but I have no contribution to it, nobody in the school recognize me, nothing look familiar to me.... its been change totally in the past few years...

Maybe next time I could certified my document at other school which is near by my house one since there is no point for me to visit my former school again. I am wondering: Is it the way of feeling growth.

飞机友

对于他的飞机，我已习以为常，就像吃生菜一样。。。
一开始就知道他给我的飞机代表了我的地位。。。
越多飞机，在他心中的地位就越低。。。
没有想到一天可以收到他的那么多个飞机，很无奈，很泄气了。。。
渐渐地对于他的飞机，我也不会动气，感觉可有可无。。。
也没有想到一连两天收到他的飞机。。。
唉，是他习惯给我飞机还是他习惯给人飞机。。。
如果是前者，我伤透了心，如果是后者，我替他可怜。。。
我其实找不到文字来表达我对他的失望。。。

总之他是一个令我失望的朋友!

一个消极的男孩

Alviss Kong 的故事，相信是大众的饭后热门话题。。。讨论的无疑是很傻啊，想不开，不懂事之类的。。。

看到他的遗书，网上留言倒数，我觉得他真的很不成熟，他不明白爱是怎么一回事，虽然我对爱也是一知半解。。。可是爱不是那样的！他那种算是占有欲吧！

他的离开在社会应该会轰动一时，这个是他要的结果吗？如果是，他成功了。如果是为了那个女生，请问他的这一举动能够让他们两的关系带来改变吗？没有，不过，他的这动作让可能的变成不可能了。多么鑽牛角尖的一个孩子啊！

昨天当我第一次晓得这消息时我还怀疑是否是一种宣传效果，所以我特地上星洲日报官方网站查寻有关这男孩的报道，查了半个小时没有结果，我累了就睡去。第二天起来，听到电台，报纸都刊登了，终于证实是真的有那么一个消极的人离开人世了。唉，我真的不愿意相信真有此事！

一个那么年轻，俊美的男孩就这样离开了，真的好可惜。。。可怜他的家人，特别是他姐姐，在他临走前还跟他嘻哈一番。。。我可以感觉到那男孩的世界是多么的黑暗。。。因为他走上了绝路。

我的朋友，当你有类似的念头时，请想想爱你的家人，关心你的朋友，等待你的未来，他们永远是你世上值得留恋的东西，请务必要耐心坚强的度过难过的时刻，要相信，时间会康复一切悲伤的。

我很庆幸我度过了。

Work is Infinity

Thought to not OT today but seem like work is infinity. 8.33pm, I’m still staying at office, working hard. Is this all worth? Sometime I will think like: Nevermind, nothing to do at home what.

But after OT till late at night for Tuesday and Wednesday, if Thursday OT again, my emotion is unbalanced, can’t think like “nevermind”.

So, I decided to bring some not really is work to do it at home-is my Planning presentation. You know what! I have to present the APP planning to GM tomorrow, walao, is General Manager, I ever think of it before, but not that fast till start at tomorrow.

Positive way thinking is this is my great opportunity to show my talent and ability. But worse of the worse, I am not well prepare for now, so it should be negative way now in my life. How? My dear superior, she is good to gift me this great chance. Wish I would do it well, at least not too bad by tomorrow.

Good luck to myself.

如何有效的改善你对工作的态度呢？

在未来属于我的家， 我要一个舒服又宽敞的厕所。。。只因为一番我认同的话。。。

"那么美的灯放在厕所很浪费喔!"

"这样你就错了，厕所是一天里最重要的一环。"

"怎么说呢？"

"你想想，起来上班第一个地方你去的是哪里？"

"厕所咯"

"不就是咯, 在美美舒服的厕所上大号，洗脸刷牙，美好的一天就开始啦。就算不想做工，一进厕所你就醒了，就很有动力去工作啦!"

"有道理喔!"

总结，厕所是很重要的，它能够大大改变你对工作的态度的。你觉得呢？^ ^

认同的话，就快快去找装修师傅搞一搞它啦!

俩个人比一个人好

在政府部门待了半天，没有怨言没有不耐，静静的跟知己作伴，真的觉得俩个人比一个人好，俩个人在一起就算完全没有生产力也觉得值得，因为少了份寂寞！

她提供我避风港，在她那里很安慰，我们很多东西都谈。。。让我暂时忘了不愉快的事。昨晚享受当下，免了睡眠。。。结果今天大家都陷入半清醒状态。。。实在是不健康的生活，这类生活，偶尔就好！

可怜的是妈妈，女儿一个电话说不回家就算。

妈妈，对不起，让你担心了！

彷徨

毕业后，几乎每个朋友都出国旅行！台湾啊，香港啊，巴厘岛什么的。。。偏偏我哪里都没有去～心里很不平衡呢！

可是旅行要钱，曾经告诉自己别当钱的奴隶。。。可是很理所当然的我已成为被钱欠着走的一族。车子，汽油，喝茶，旅行什么的都是钱当前。怎样能够让钱滚滚来呢？头痛。。。

越想赚钱越觉得自己无知，完全没有方向，找不到方法赚多点钱。。。钱就那么多，要做的东西就有那么那么多，投资那边好呢？又头痛。。。

人生有几多个十年？到底要怎样应用那数个十年呢？整篇文章都是问题，就显示我是多么的彷徨。。。谁能打救我呢？

小事无所谓，不要紧

长这么大，总觉得人之初，性本善的。
可是长这么大，也知道人是自私的。

每每发生什么事，都学会相信对方是无心的，不愿去想那是对方故意的。反正事情发生了，没什么大碍就得饶人处且饶人，这是我的心一直抱着的信仰。。。

长这么大，我也学会小事无所谓，不要紧。。。无伤大雅的事就随它吧，不必这么执着让自己心烦。。。

虽然不是那么容易控制情绪可是我做到比以前好多了，然而我发觉很多人都做不到呢！有时候当我做不到“无所谓，不要紧”时，我就会想起一则故事：

一对父子难得抽时间出去玩联络感情，途中塞车让父亲心情糟糕透顶，途中满口骂语让儿子心情也低落,儿子责怪自己以为父亲不喜欢自己。。。结果可想而知是关系疏远，误会连连。。。

还好父亲在下一刻发现此旅程的目的是联络感情开开心心，快快乐乐。。。所以父亲气消了，笑脸来了，气氛轻松了，父子俩聊得天昏地暗，忘了塞车的痛苦。。。

何乐而不为呢。。。

直销这一行

直销你抗拒吗？我不抗拒可是我没有天赋做这行，我也知道很多人都很抗拒。

弟弟一早起来就告诉我这东西，我就知道他是不抗拒的。 其实我很支持他去做如果他是有心去做的话。我也深信你有天赋去说服别人的话，要赚大钱不难。

如果说这行能赚大钱，那它的产品素质应该有待保留。试想想，一个上线有那么多个下线，下线买一样东西，上线赚一笔，上上线又赚一笔，上上上线再赚一把，那么扣除这些，产品的价格就其实是一样很便宜的产品吧！那么是不是代表消费者被欺诈或是被剥夺。

作为一个精明消费者，怎么想都觉得不值得。可是作为一个创业者，这不失为是一个赚钱的好方法。

可是我很佩服这行业的始作俑者，他们用很多心思去培养下线去帮他们赚钱，教导他们怎样使用产品，让他们学习沟通技巧，怎样做个领导者，有信心的人。所以，大多数直销人都很会讲话。我妈妈常说，说话是一门学问。我很努力在这方面学习，毕竟工作，朋友家人，任何一个场合都需要到这门艺术。你觉得呢？

我没有信心用这行去赚钱，自己没有天赋，不想因为这个失去身边的朋友因为本人的人脉已经少的可怜了哈。

我想扩展我的人际网络，所以我对直销提供的课程还蛮有兴趣的，不过直觉还是让我远离它。。。

“未来还是自己摸索比较有趣。”

“河粉清汤，唔该！”，点餐后坐下才发觉我的习惯改变了。以前我只点米粉，可是现在我很自然地就点河粉。现在回想原来我有这个喜好好像很久了。几时改变我也忘了。突然发现原来经历过是回不到原点的。

很多次我想改换吃回米粉，可是讲到嘴边还是河粉。到底为什么，是不是我爱上了河粉，不想改变，还是我习惯了吃河粉，一时改不了。

再想深入一点，我是应该回到从前爱吃米粉，还是保持现在习惯吃河粉好呢？不过我累了，不想烦恼这些，还是顺其自然吧！

可能河粉象征一些东西。。。让我当下无法释怀吧。

再想下去，以后我的口味会是什么呢？会不会是爱上吃面或饭呢？还是会习惯去吃面包呢？到底我会爱吃到什么程度呢？还是到后来我还是习惯河粉当餐食呢？这个真的不懂。。。所以很期待未来，期待的感觉还蛮不错。。。好像有了些方向有了些寄托呢！

未来这玩意儿真的很奇妙，让人充满想象，充满希望。未来犹如白纸，任我们写任我们画。。。我很想现在就经历未来看看我会点什么来吃。。。可是，我很认同Professor King的一句话。“未来还是自己摸索比较有趣。” 你觉得呢？

Her life

Online is a marvellous thing to me.... it give ppl a lot of things, get to know a lot of knowledge, abreast with the current world's issue...

but most of the time, Internet is a place for those lonely ppl.

Today, Im a lonely ppl. Haha, I surf net like usual... checked everything in 5 minutes... thought was time for shut down but I clicked in her profile.

Her profile showed her life, a beautiful life which impressed me and made me spent time on it.

She is a wonderful girl. She has her life.... how good to have your own life without any contraints. I know she has her constraint just i do not know. But at least her image is telling me that she is free from anything, although she maybe is nobody to others but for sure she is somebody for herself.

She is a very natural girl. For what i saw, she is someone who do not care others' vision and she do what she like what she want and what she able to do seem like without any obstacle but I know she had met obstacle just being solved by her. What a girl who live with immense zeal.

She is a sentimental girl with all feeling for any single thing. How wonderful to have desperate feeling to life. She can photo everywhere, give speech for every event, write out her feeling for every moment. For sure, everythings in this earth is meaningful for her.

You really is a lovely girl, I learn a lot from you although I seldom meet up with you. Yes, Im really lucky to be your friend!