悄悄的变

你知道吗？你身边的东西一直在变哦！可能它悄悄的变了你不知道呢？当你庆幸时，你还蒙在鼓里误以为自己很幸福很幸运呢！有可能你被瞒上一两个月甚至几年你才得晓事情的来龙去脉。。。很可怕的变动吧！。。。今天我终于意识到自己的超级渺小。

今天听到一些资讯，坦白说，不失望是骗你的。不过我自己也没有料到。。。其实我没有想象中的那么失望喔！原来我的心里准备做到家了，只是我想不起我做过什么准备。难道说我看破红尘了？

有时候我在想，别人称赞你是真心的还是另有目的的呢？是要鼓励你让你有劲点去为他做事吗？我其实很想知道，可是我无从知道，因为人心难测啊！连科学家都还不能成功的发明一部百分之百准确的测谎机，所以我也没有费神去找答案。只是我免不了在想，我应该用什么心情去诠译那些赞美才能让自己过得快乐些呢？

应该是当对方是真心的，让自己充满信心。。。还是。。。不要让别人把你当傻子耍，离开呢？会不会，决定做了，以为对了，却在后来，不懂是几个月后的后来还是几年后的后来，才知道原来都是错的！

哗，人生好难决定哦！

我想还是让自己知识渊博，不再无知，再来做决定吧！可是会很迟吗？

The way of feeling growth

Is been long time I didn't visit my former school. So this time I had an opportunity since I need to certified some document.

Actually it is not a must to be certified by former school teacher, certified document could be done by any school teacher but finally I chose to visit my former school although I am lazy to drive so far to reach there maybe because I wish to touch back the school day feeling. How wonderful to study and to be young.

Early in the morning, I woke up and drive along the road that I seldom use. Once I reached, unexpectedly, there were few pupils in there to practice something... I thought it is holiday now, it should be no pupils inside school one.

Then, I continued to office, wow, the office change a lot, new look had been replace the old way teacher's office. First thing I did was to identify who is the headmaster now in the school by reading the organization chart in front of the office , so it is what I expected, another headmaster's photo whom I do not know is paste on the board. But never mind, I searched for the other teacher who is familiar to me, luckily, it is there. Again, I could feel the familiarity.

But the news just like a storm, she was moved to another school.... New office, new building, new headmaster, new teacher... and new pupils, I am no longer belong to this school, although I am a alumni of the school, but I have no contribution to it, nobody in the school recognize me, nothing look familiar to me.... its been change totally in the past few years...

Maybe next time I could certified my document at other school which is near by my house one since there is no point for me to visit my former school again. I am wondering: Is it the way of feeling growth.

飞机友

对于他的飞机，我已习以为常，就像吃生菜一样。。。
一开始就知道他给我的飞机代表了我的地位。。。
越多飞机，在他心中的地位就越低。。。
没有想到一天可以收到他的那么多个飞机，很无奈，很泄气了。。。
渐渐地对于他的飞机，我也不会动气，感觉可有可无。。。
也没有想到一连两天收到他的飞机。。。
唉，是他习惯给我飞机还是他习惯给人飞机。。。
如果是前者，我伤透了心，如果是后者，我替他可怜。。。
我其实找不到文字来表达我对他的失望。。。

总之他是一个令我失望的朋友!

一个消极的男孩

Alviss Kong 的故事，相信是大众的饭后热门话题。。。讨论的无疑是很傻啊，想不开，不懂事之类的。。。

看到他的遗书，网上留言倒数，我觉得他真的很不成熟，他不明白爱是怎么一回事，虽然我对爱也是一知半解。。。可是爱不是那样的！他那种算是占有欲吧！

他的离开在社会应该会轰动一时，这个是他要的结果吗？如果是，他成功了。如果是为了那个女生，请问他的这一举动能够让他们两的关系带来改变吗？没有，不过，他的这动作让可能的变成不可能了。多么鑽牛角尖的一个孩子啊！

昨天当我第一次晓得这消息时我还怀疑是否是一种宣传效果，所以我特地上星洲日报官方网站查寻有关这男孩的报道，查了半个小时没有结果，我累了就睡去。第二天起来，听到电台，报纸都刊登了，终于证实是真的有那么一个消极的人离开人世了。唉，我真的不愿意相信真有此事！

一个那么年轻，俊美的男孩就这样离开了，真的好可惜。。。可怜他的家人，特别是他姐姐，在他临走前还跟他嘻哈一番。。。我可以感觉到那男孩的世界是多么的黑暗。。。因为他走上了绝路。

我的朋友，当你有类似的念头时，请想想爱你的家人，关心你的朋友，等待你的未来，他们永远是你世上值得留恋的东西，请务必要耐心坚强的度过难过的时刻，要相信，时间会康复一切悲伤的。

我很庆幸我度过了。

Work is Infinity

Thought to not OT today but seem like work is infinity. 8.33pm, I’m still staying at office, working hard. Is this all worth? Sometime I will think like: Nevermind, nothing to do at home what.

But after OT till late at night for Tuesday and Wednesday, if Thursday OT again, my emotion is unbalanced, can’t think like “nevermind”.

So, I decided to bring some not really is work to do it at home-is my Planning presentation. You know what! I have to present the APP planning to GM tomorrow, walao, is General Manager, I ever think of it before, but not that fast till start at tomorrow.

Positive way thinking is this is my great opportunity to show my talent and ability. But worse of the worse, I am not well prepare for now, so it should be negative way now in my life. How? My dear superior, she is good to gift me this great chance. Wish I would do it well, at least not too bad by tomorrow.

Good luck to myself.

如何有效的改善你对工作的态度呢？

在未来属于我的家， 我要一个舒服又宽敞的厕所。。。只因为一番我认同的话。。。

"那么美的灯放在厕所很浪费喔!"

"这样你就错了，厕所是一天里最重要的一环。"

"怎么说呢？"

"你想想，起来上班第一个地方你去的是哪里？"

"厕所咯"

"不就是咯, 在美美舒服的厕所上大号，洗脸刷牙，美好的一天就开始啦。就算不想做工，一进厕所你就醒了，就很有动力去工作啦!"

"有道理喔!"

总结，厕所是很重要的，它能够大大改变你对工作的态度的。你觉得呢？^ ^

认同的话，就快快去找装修师傅搞一搞它啦!

俩个人比一个人好

在政府部门待了半天，没有怨言没有不耐，静静的跟知己作伴，真的觉得俩个人比一个人好，俩个人在一起就算完全没有生产力也觉得值得，因为少了份寂寞！

她提供我避风港，在她那里很安慰，我们很多东西都谈。。。让我暂时忘了不愉快的事。昨晚享受当下，免了睡眠。。。结果今天大家都陷入半清醒状态。。。实在是不健康的生活，这类生活，偶尔就好！

可怜的是妈妈，女儿一个电话说不回家就算。

妈妈，对不起，让你担心了！