New Normal

 Stop updating for 2 years since 2020. 

What had i done for the past 2 years?

Started a relationship and ended. Then started another relationship till now.

Changed a new company and left. Then started another job in another new company till now.

Oh ya, obeyed to all covid measurements for the past 2 years..

Masks on.. safe distancing... WFH... vaccination... blah blah

New normal life. This is the term government use to encourage residents to be motivated for future. Not to lose hope.

After all these, I became more comfortable to stay home.

Not interested to go travel... more interested to go back hometown to stay with mother.

Gradually lose interest to interact with people... gradually lose the ability to communicate.

Of course aging haha.

Thats all for today la.... 

媽媽，我想你了

今天想媽媽了。

心彷徨了。我哭了。

情緒來了。感性起來了。

媽媽，希望你知道我是愛你的。

現在好像回家看你。抱一抱。

Year 2020 Goals

Wow, the post was delayed since December last year. It's March now.
Anyway, it never too late for anything.
Let's set 2020 personal goal.

So, let's review personal goal set in year 2019.

Here you go
1. Buy a house
2. Study foreign language
3. Read 20 books.
4. Tummy goes away
5. Go travel

For house, yes, I owned a house now but house loan is yet to settle and just started since Jan 2020.
So, one goal is done.

For studying foreign language, erm, is sign language consider as foreign language. I guess is a "yes". HAHA. Ya, I took elementary sign language course. It's pretty interesting. It allowed me to explore new culture. Quite difficult but learning is always enhance our life.
So, second goal is achieved.

Next, reading 20 books. Haiz, I read honestly but the reading speed is kinda slow. Plus, I have a lots of material to read like news, social media article, etc. So, I did reading books but maybe just 5 books.
So, 5/20 meaning only 25% of the goal. It sound bad but better than nothing.
So, reading goal is partially accomplished.

Ahha, for tummy, surprisingly I have little happy that the goal is almost achieved. It yet to achieve that full tummy is gone but almost 70% of the tummy is left. So, I'm pretty slim now. Hehe, happy. Yoga and jogging are really helping a lots plus nutrition and volume intake control.
I would score myself partially about 70% achievement for this goal.

Last but not least, travelling, yeah, I went for travel quite number of places. Let me list down.
1. Guang Zhou
2. Taiwan
3. Batam
4. Thailand
5. Staycation at Muar and KL
Yeah, last goal is checked.

Let me summarize again for year 2019 goals.
1. Buy a house                       -> Done
2. Study foreign language      ->Done
3. Read 20 books.                   -> 25% Done
4. Tummy goes away              ->70% Done
5. Go travel                              -> Done

Wow, it seems like a good result. Should reward myself hehe.

No more nonsense, let's set year 2020 goals.
1. Read 20 books
2. Six pack tummy
3. Pass JLPT4
4. Detox on daily basis (get away from constipation)
5. Get away from pimple face

That's it at the moment.
Let's work out my goals.

Stay healthy always... Virus fighting.

2019

It's time to set goal for 2019. When it was still end of 2018, my mind kept reminding to set goal for next year. But busy plus lazy, 2018 is over. Once again, it proves time flies.

Back to topics, in my company, it always has quarterly review the past and future direction. So am I. Hence, I'm going to review my past year 2018 before setting goal for 2019.

First of all, let me dig out the goal setting for 2018.....

Oh no!!! I didn't set goal for 2018 actually. It was 2017 goals.... 

Hell, is this busy plus aging!!!

I actually forget the whole year yet I thought it was set....AGING SYMPTOM!!!

Anyway, lets be mercy so, let's start my goal setting for this year 2019.

In this case, let me dig out the goal for 2017...

Here you go....

1. Stay healthy and get away my tummy.
2. Beauty myself by getting away from pimple and have fair skin on my face.

Obviously, both are failed. SAD. Tummy and pimple still with me. 

5 why analysis...

Goal 1: 

why failed? because didn't work out.

why didn't? because no time.

why no time? because time was priority reserve for other things.

why work out was not first priority? because study and work are priority.

So, root caused found and acceptable. bull shit.

Goal 2:

why failed? because allergy.

why allergy? because .... Went for skin specialist and tested, further test is required and I gave up.

So, root caused unknown. Just pray....

Okay... I want to set goal for 2019.

1. Buy a house.

2. Study foreign language.

3. Read 20 books.

4. Tummy go away.

5. Go travel.

Next, is setting milestone for each goal.

No idea now. So, I will do it next time. Bye!!!

被虐型的硕士生

离完成学业还有那么仅仅的
一小段了。。。
还没完成就感觉空虚了
以为没有了学业带来的压力，人会轻松些
可没想到，反而失去了精神支柱。。。
感觉少了什么似的。。。

我就是犯贱。。。
苦命型。。。

难怪朋友告知我是个，天蝎座喜爱被虐的那一方。。。

为了人感觉满满的。。
我开始计划我以后闲出来的时间了。。。

大概都是些，家人为中心之类吧！！！

加油吧。。。亚洲人。。

我成长了吗？

管理人真的难。管着管着我也麻了。

绊脚石的信，没有情绪的我就纸上一签，往上面一交，就忘了。
忘了应该来个一对一问候什么的。直到几天后他来问我“我的信，你看到了吗？"
我才记起来了。。。

我什么时候变得那么没有感觉。

最近，某某可能要因为工作表现需要离开。。。我还点头同意。。。

我什么时候变得那么无情。

这是成长吗？

想念

好久没有部落格啦。
突然想起，所以来逛逛。

上个月，在脸书上乱滑时，看了个视频。
有个小孩，特别可爱，特别吸睛。
他唱了首歌，特有意思。歌名是“常回家看看”
我忍不住重复听，也搞不清楚哪里一个点让我感动得哭了起来。
特别特别想念妈妈。

歌词简单到位

找点空闲　给我点时间　领着孩子常回家看看
带上笑容　带上祝愿　陪同爱人常回家看看
妈妈准备了一些唠叨　爸爸张罗了一桌好饭
生活的烦恼跟妈妈说说　工作的事情向爸爸谈谈
常回家看看回家看看　那怕帮妈妈刷刷筷子洗洗碗
老人不图儿女为家做多大贡献　一辈子不容易就图个团团圆圆
常回家看看回家看看　那怕给爸爸捶捶后背揉揉肩
老人不图儿女为家做多大贡献　一辈子总操心就图个平平安安

最爱听的那段是
老人不图儿女为家做多大贡献　一辈子总操心就图个平平安安

有人说，只有自己当了妈妈才会体会到妈妈的心境。
虽然我不是妈妈，可是有时候就特别担心妈妈
特别想她。

老人家多半要个伴儿。我多么希望妈妈能有我的陪伴。
我不孝女，总爱找借口。世上没有两全其美，有得必有 失。
要取舍，要平衡。

这会儿想得哭出来了。
立马安排时间，买了票回家去。
看到了妈妈就安心了

Goals for 2017

It's boxing day. It means end of year 2016 is soon around the corner.
So, let's review my 2016 goals as below.

1. Read 50 books in year 2016.
2. Stay healthy and get away my tummy.
3. Study Master.
4. Beauty myself by getting away from pimple and have fair skin on my face.

Well, apparently, failed for 3 out of 4.
1. I read some books, but 50 books are way to achieve. Sorry to myself.
2. Stay healthy is achieved by end of the year but yet tummy still with me and seem like growing in a constant rate. Sad to tell this.
3. YEAH, I achieved this one that started since September. Still long way to go. New chapter of my life is started.
4. Well, failure, pimple is better but keep it on and off. Seem like no way to get off my face.

Haha, At least I achieved one.

So, what about 2017. How about continue to my previous goals.

1. Stay healthy and get away my tummy.
2. Beauty myself by getting away from pimple and have fair skin on my face.

I guess I will busy with my master study and not much time for other goals. So, that's it for 2017. ^^

公司来那么一出<乱世出佳人>

好长一段时间没来这里。也把这里忘了一段时间。现在失眠就突然想起。
每次享用了茶后都这样。糊涂的我也常不理会。晚上才来后悔。

没关系，这样也让我比较有心思分享。

说说公司吧。。

公司总让我觉得一团糟。不过。。。
某某能力很强的同事说，对一个准备待续，等待机会的人来说，公司的糟无疑是某某人的一出“乱世出佳人”。

某某对我来说就是“乱世出佳人”的绝好例子。在问题丛丛的团队脱颖而出，成功上位。
强国的人果然非常强，聪明地让我佩服。当然上天是公平的，人没有完美，某某虽然工作表现满分却缺乏耐心。招惹许多部属的怨，当然还不到恨。

其实重点也不是什么，可能某某特意树立那么一个严谨的形象好让员工管理方面比较顺心吧！！成功人士厉害就是在这里，懂得捉心里，应用不一样的途径去达成理想。

虽然我们不同team, 但奇怪的发展，我们成为看戏吃饭的伴。每次聊天都压力山大，却又学习深渊。某某的见解非常与众不同，却也心机丛丛。好在某某的心机都很正面，出发点都不是要伤害别人。那如果在事情的发展中有人受伤，那就是那人咎由自取了。俗语说“不进则退”，虽然不能完全说不是某某的问题，不过在对方努力而没有伤害的成分下而发生的话，我想说，受伤的人要为自己受伤负大部分责任。因为对方努力，而自己没有付出，在职场上，能力者上，这是在普通不过了。在这种情况下受伤的人请自行反省，别一味埋怨别人啦。。。。

好累，天亮了，一夜未睡的我该补眠了。

Goals of the Year 2016

That day I asked her one question.

"Did you ever encounter those period in your life that is day counting days after days?"

She frown and answer "No".

Continuing, she said "Why? Are you reflecting your life now?"

I was embarrassed like my mind was being read by her.

Actually yes, I'm doing it now. I cross my calendar everyday like counting my day. In short, I'm having challenge-less life now as I have time to do such silly thing. It's not my style.

Apparently, it's my comfort zone now. Urge to change but reluctant to move. Laziness always is human's weakness.

Whenever I facebook somebody picture, by seeing their successful, I wish I am the one. I always be encouraged at that moment. But, after some times, I realize I keep the same and never move.

People always set goal at the beginning of the years. I set some as other people to make my life meaningful. Of course, it looks weak compare with others

1. Read 50 books in year 2016.
2. Stay healthy and get away my tummy.
3. Study Master.
4. Beauty myself by getting away from pimple and have fair skin on my face.

Before accomplish my goal of the year, lets review the year of 2015.

What had you done? Erm....

1. Biz trip to Japan. Be frank, this was a surprise from my boss. From there, I realized my big boss recognized my effort that I was pretty happy with that.

2. Promoted. Heard that it was my small boss idea to promote me. Hence, he is another people recognized me. Happy!!! However, the period of starting, there was office politic happened at me. Some one resigned.
I was upset myself with the incident. How could this happening to me? Anyway, it's over now.

3. I reduced 4kg of my weight. Means, I am healthier now. Good sign to accomplish my 2016 goals.

Erm... seem this is that much I had in my year 2015. Pretty less thing had done by me. sound low productivity.

Since 2015 is passed, we shouldn't cry for spitted milk. Lets focus on my 2016 goals.

Gambateh.

苏志夑

最近迷他，连续一个月每天看他的戏。
他的歌没有很好听。可是他是魅力型。就算歌没在听，却有在看。

相信每个粉丝都是这样。
我是浅迷吧，至少没花钱。哈哈


写这个不是炫耀看了他多少部戏，也不是推荐他简介他。
 只是想说，人的幻想能力是很强的。

只要朔造得好，人可以把喜欢的东西完美化。
喜欢享受被自己完美化的东西是沉迷吗？还是一种生活乐趣？
当发现完美的人有点缺陷就会疯掉吗？

看了无数他的影片，都好看直到有个他没在笑看起来耍大牌的影片。
发现他也是个有情绪的人类，并非我脑子里的那个。

可能想得太美了。看着这个影片，也就开始讨厌他。

所谓爱与恨是一线之差。虽然没那么严重。却也开始体会。

还好看他是个乐趣，所以拿到了个平衡点。
看他的感觉还蛮好的。
哈哈